mad mad world!

i've been thinkin to myslf that i must start writing...soon! there is so much to observe and always so much to say!!!
i was hooked to the tv yesterday....watching the big bollywood wedding unfold! what little they showed, that is! its amazing how the paparazzi culture has hit us here! and how crazy the public can get about actors! and what psychological disorders can creep in to a person's psyche, given some instability...
i was amazed by the accusations of the "sedated" woman....i mean it was ludicrous, and yet so sad! its so tragic, how the mind can play games on a person. and how a mother can play along.. that shows one of two things, either implicit belief in everything the child says, or plain stupidity!
then there are people climbing trees, all for a glimpse of the hero and heroine and family, not to mention the "extras" ( the anil ambanis and the karan johars of the world!) !!
then there are the poor policemen (some of whom must be embarassed to be caught on camera, chatting on their cell phones...then again, its indian policemen we're talkin about...i guess its good enough that they didnt take bribes from people and let them in!) had to resort to lathi charge...something they seem to get increasingly efficient at. sheer practice, from what we see.
then again, there is the media, invading privacy totally, and speculating quite stupidly, at what must be happening, and what the "plan" is supposedly!! i mean, how would they know?? and why do "smart" anchors in the studios ask stupid questions like "so what do u think is going to happen in the next few minutes...?" the poor reporter is not only having it out with the heat and the mad public, s/he also needs to speculate, when in truth, is clueless, cos they're on the road and the functions are not!!!
also, i think the hype was more because it was the forbidden fruit...it was jus curiosity, simply because the celebs wanted the privacy! and i wouldn't blame them....
its not a nice culture we're fostering and media must not be encouraged to snoop where its not wanted...
however, the devil must be given its due....we should be thankful that justice is gaining a voice now, and that our hands are not tied anymore!
all in all, its truly a mad mad world! but so what.....??

infidelity...

i caught the second day, second show of the movie "K.A.N.K" and no offence, but i jus couldn't see what the hype was all about!!at all!!and it wasn't because i am visually impaired or anything!!i was left quite untouched...and thats really something coming from me, cos i have cried buckets over some story lines, once too many times!!and i love shah rukh khan, think abhishek bachchan is the breath of fresh air that bollywood really needs as is priety zinta(who's incredibly hot these days) !rani had a very undefined role. all in all i was quite bored...despite the actors!i was left wonderin if the message was that infidelity pays off in the end...you get what u want, tho u and ur loved ones go thru incredible pain...is it a msg of hope that if u hang on long enough and pretend to move on and lose touch, it'll pay off at the very end...no matter what?? i know infidelity isn't a secret and is in vogue....still doesn't excuse it....how can any one person decide that its ok to break a committment one has already made to one's family and partner and follow his/her heart in the name of love or lust or whatever else u want to call it?!who has the authority to make that decision?and then, what does any promise once made mean??does it hold any water at all? its about time ppl stopped thinkin of money and lust and jus led simple,honest lives don't u think? infidelity is a lot like suicide...taking one's life shouldn't really one's own choice cos once they'r dead, its the ppl around that are most affected and carry the scars for the rest of their lives!
oh well...this is just me ranting.....thank u if u've bothered reading so far....
the bottom line is, think beyond yourself and empathise....you'r total quality of life is bound to improve..atleast thats what i belive!(and damn....im preaching again...)

power games...

today, i realized an important thing.....power, in any form, shrouds and swallows a person...it makes the most decent of them forget who they are and what they stand for!...of course there are the rare exceptions. i'm not talking about politicians alone, but people closer home. even i, for that matter, have realized that, i yell at someone who will take it, and does not have the power to retaliate. its cowardly, but human! thats why the lion chases its prey.. however, what pleasure do i derive from inflicting that pain(or insult) on an individual of lesser standing than me? none!! yet, it seems some do!! and as a student of psychology, i understand the need for power but not its headiness! what makes people throw their power around when they can get away with it?

blocked!

i know what writer's block means...i can't seem to get down to writing!damn!

random thoughts...

allo!! i've been meaning to write this for some time now, but jus didn't get around to finishing it...
well, a few days ago, i saw this movie called "15 park avenue"...i think it's one of the best movies i've seen in a really long time. the movie revolved around this schizophrenic girl and her family....it was so well done, that it was a visual of all that i have studied in abnormal psych! im no movie critic but the acting was phenomenal (and rahul bose is plain HOT!). it was hard-hitting reality. there are those, who don't find "real" movies appealing, because a movie is considered to be entertainment, time away from the pressures of everyday life, an escape...
but how far can you run, really? is it very different from, burying your head in the sand, like an ostrich, and pretending the problems away? i guess i come from the school of thought where, once faced with a problem, you may as well deal with it ASAP and be done with it...it has to be done anyway...like the cliche goes, you can run, but you can't hide...(hahahaha...evil laugh!)
the movie also got me thinking...(unbelievable, eh?)...(i heard that!!!)....cos some of the dialogues were so powerful...what is reality? it is a matter of perception. now, how do any of us have the right to alter anyone else's reality, or for that matter be the judge of it? i don't mean that in terms of things like colour or definite objects...but perceptions, cognitions...again, i am not referring to the handicapped or the delusional...but jus how quickly we jump to judgements about people and their actions. there are cultures that judge and label a person by their colour, or peer group...how accurate can that generalization be? i am absolutely not holier-than-thou, but i do think we must think about these things before we are too harsh on any person...no one can be sooo bad. it is a matter of perception. and that is influenced by one's own mind-set and expectations. if i go expecting to dislike someone, even before i take the time to get to know them, i am going to dislike them, purely because i have already tried and judged them guilty. in turn to my antagonism, the other person will definitely pick up on my negative vibes( unless HE chooses to be insensitive, like a lot of men feign innocence!hehe, i jus ouldn't resist that dig) and return the favour. then again, the best way to combat someone negativity, is by oozing charm and warmth(even if it kills you!) because then, the other person will be at a loss...you can't pick a fight with a person who refuses to fight back...even if you're desperate!
ah well, enough gyaan(read, lecture!...yawn!!)...
peace!

how many of you bloggers have asked this question...WHY BLOG? i have this very special somone who asked me that today, and for once, i was at a loss for words...i did manage to think on my toes and come up with some answer as to how a blog is jus someplace where one can say what they feel..it's like being published...and all that jazz...but now, how about an real answer..
why would you want to put your thoughts out there..on the internet of all places, for all and sundry to read???and why would anyone even want to read them? hmm...thats my quota of thought for the day, i think....apart from it being a platform to air your views, tear people/things apart, humiliate(unintentionally, of course!)...these are very common place reasons....don't you think?
ah well..when i have something more constructive to say, i shall...then again, that is a matter of perception...
later!

blogging sure is addictive! i realized that i was spendin a lot of time (lying awake) thinkin of stuff i wanted to write! now that i put that down, i realize i sound a lil' weird! but thats that...
somwhow now that i've actually got down to writing, im drawing a blank! some sort of writer's/blogger's block i think!

hey...
the muse visits rather late, i guess..then again, better late than never.
at the cost of sounding like i have one foot in the grave already, im coming to terms with how old i'm feeling suddenly...im often assaulted with a whole hoard of memories...some so clear, some fading and fuzzy, yet most are still there somewhere. im in my final year in college and time surehas whizzed past.i have such vivid memories and they seem so recent, yet as of today, we have ONLY 50 days left!hmm...how?! i do know i have been a brat through and through...that is the story of my life!!and i love it...
i also confess to mood swings. i think i have bipolar disorder...hehe...thats what studying abnormal psychology does to me! thats makes me think i have a mild case of hypochondria as well...see, you live only once(i hope!) and you may as well cram all that you can into it!it makes life interesting!
hmm...well my lil' brain's shut down...will make a habit of blogging! do indulge me and read on once in a while...shall also work on being more interesting! ;)
love and peace...
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