random thoughts...

allo!! i've been meaning to write this for some time now, but jus didn't get around to finishing it...
well, a few days ago, i saw this movie called "15 park avenue"...i think it's one of the best movies i've seen in a really long time. the movie revolved around this schizophrenic girl and her family....it was so well done, that it was a visual of all that i have studied in abnormal psych! im no movie critic but the acting was phenomenal (and rahul bose is plain HOT!). it was hard-hitting reality. there are those, who don't find "real" movies appealing, because a movie is considered to be entertainment, time away from the pressures of everyday life, an escape...
but how far can you run, really? is it very different from, burying your head in the sand, like an ostrich, and pretending the problems away? i guess i come from the school of thought where, once faced with a problem, you may as well deal with it ASAP and be done with it...it has to be done anyway...like the cliche goes, you can run, but you can't hide...(hahahaha...evil laugh!)
the movie also got me thinking...(unbelievable, eh?)...(i heard that!!!)....cos some of the dialogues were so powerful...what is reality? it is a matter of perception. now, how do any of us have the right to alter anyone else's reality, or for that matter be the judge of it? i don't mean that in terms of things like colour or definite objects...but perceptions, cognitions...again, i am not referring to the handicapped or the delusional...but jus how quickly we jump to judgements about people and their actions. there are cultures that judge and label a person by their colour, or peer group...how accurate can that generalization be? i am absolutely not holier-than-thou, but i do think we must think about these things before we are too harsh on any person...no one can be sooo bad. it is a matter of perception. and that is influenced by one's own mind-set and expectations. if i go expecting to dislike someone, even before i take the time to get to know them, i am going to dislike them, purely because i have already tried and judged them guilty. in turn to my antagonism, the other person will definitely pick up on my negative vibes( unless HE chooses to be insensitive, like a lot of men feign innocence!hehe, i jus ouldn't resist that dig) and return the favour. then again, the best way to combat someone negativity, is by oozing charm and warmth(even if it kills you!) because then, the other person will be at a loss...you can't pick a fight with a person who refuses to fight back...even if you're desperate!
ah well, enough gyaan(read, lecture!...yawn!!)...
peace!

how many of you bloggers have asked this question...WHY BLOG? i have this very special somone who asked me that today, and for once, i was at a loss for words...i did manage to think on my toes and come up with some answer as to how a blog is jus someplace where one can say what they feel..it's like being published...and all that jazz...but now, how about an real answer..
why would you want to put your thoughts out there..on the internet of all places, for all and sundry to read???and why would anyone even want to read them? hmm...thats my quota of thought for the day, i think....apart from it being a platform to air your views, tear people/things apart, humiliate(unintentionally, of course!)...these are very common place reasons....don't you think?
ah well..when i have something more constructive to say, i shall...then again, that is a matter of perception...
later!

blogging sure is addictive! i realized that i was spendin a lot of time (lying awake) thinkin of stuff i wanted to write! now that i put that down, i realize i sound a lil' weird! but thats that...
somwhow now that i've actually got down to writing, im drawing a blank! some sort of writer's/blogger's block i think!

hey...
the muse visits rather late, i guess..then again, better late than never.
at the cost of sounding like i have one foot in the grave already, im coming to terms with how old i'm feeling suddenly...im often assaulted with a whole hoard of memories...some so clear, some fading and fuzzy, yet most are still there somewhere. im in my final year in college and time surehas whizzed past.i have such vivid memories and they seem so recent, yet as of today, we have ONLY 50 days left!hmm...how?! i do know i have been a brat through and through...that is the story of my life!!and i love it...
i also confess to mood swings. i think i have bipolar disorder...hehe...thats what studying abnormal psychology does to me! thats makes me think i have a mild case of hypochondria as well...see, you live only once(i hope!) and you may as well cram all that you can into it!it makes life interesting!
hmm...well my lil' brain's shut down...will make a habit of blogging! do indulge me and read on once in a while...shall also work on being more interesting! ;)
love and peace...
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